Given the recent development in the David Pierce case (see yesterday's blog post), it would be much easier for me to stop telling my story, and focus on how I'm feeling right now. However, I feel like it is more important than ever to get my story out there. I want to be able to finish before he is actually released from prison. So with that being said, away from the parole hearing news and back to the telling of my story.
It's strange how something so sick and so twisted can be made into a badge of honor. David would make sure we knew where we ranked. Whose penis was bigger than whose. Even though none of us allowed ourselves to realize or admit it at the time, we knew it was wrong. We never talked about it. Joe [obviously not his real name] was my best friend. I was around him more than anyone. But unless David was with us and brought it up, we never talked about any of it.
As the relationship progressed, David became more and more controlling. He continuously interjected himself into our personal relationships. Friendships, romantic relationships, family relationships. But he always put more effort into controlling my relationship with my girlfriend. The first time she told me she loved me, my response was "I'm not sure if I love you. I need to talk to David first." When Joe and I went to prom our Junior and Senior years, we each had small gold angel pins on our lapels, courtesy of David. "Something to look over you", David claimed. Or, a way to keep a piece of himself with us in a place he couldn't physically be.
Just like everything else, he was so careful with his control that I never knew it was happening till years later. He had me completely convinced that I needed to break up with my older girlfriend the summer before she went to college. I can still vividly remember the afternoon that summer I went over to her house. I walked in the door, every fiber of my being screaming "this is not right", but my mind saying "David wouldn't steer me wrong". Thankfully, God saved that relationship, and we've been married ten years with two beautiful children.
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
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Romans 1:21-31
21Because that, when they knew God, they glorified him not as God, neither were thankful; but became vain in their imaginations, and their foolish heart was darkened.
22Professing themselves to be wise, they became fools,
23And changed the glory of the uncorruptible God into an image made like to corruptible man, and to birds, and fourfooted beasts, and creeping things.
24Wherefore God also gave them up to uncleanness through the lusts of their own hearts, to dishonour their own bodies between themselves:
25Who changed the truth of God into a lie, and worshipped and served the creature more than the Creator, who is blessed for ever. Amen.
26For this cause God gave them up unto vile affections: for even their women did change the natural use into that which is against nature:
27And likewise also the men, leaving the natural use of the woman, burned in their lust one toward another; men with men working that which is unseemly, and receiving in themselves that recompence of their error which was meet.
28And even as they did not like to retain God in their knowledge, God gave them over to a reprobate mind, to do those things which are not convenient;
29Being filled with all unrighteousness, fornication, wickedness, covetousness, maliciousness; full of envy, murder, debate, deceit, malignity; whisperers,
30Backbiters, haters of God, despiteful, proud, boasters, inventors of evil things, disobedient to parents,
31Without understanding, covenantbreakers, without natural affection, implacable, unmerciful:
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